Ana de Armas about her relationship with Ben Affleck

Ana de Armas' relationship with Ben Affleck may have ended after only one year of dating, but it taught her a lot about herself

The 34-year-old actress opens up in a new interview with Elle magazine about how her highly-publicized romance with the 49-year-old actor

It helped her realize Los Angeles was not the place she belonged.

When asked how it felt to be constantly gossiped about and photographed during her time with Affleck, de Armas says

It was "horrible," but ended up being a blessing in disguise. "Which is good,” she adds. “That’s one of the reasons why I left L.A."

Elaborating on the experience, de Armas explains that she had spent several years watching others' lives be constantly followed by paparazzi and when it happened to her, she knew it was time to leave.

"Going through it [myself] confirmed my thoughts about, ‘This is not the place for me to be,’” she shares.

“It became a little bit too much. There’s no escape. There’s no way out.

[In Los Angeles], it’s always the feeling of something that you don’t have, something missing. It’s a city that keeps you anxious."